Blog 15

Friday, July 03, 2009
Current mood: crunk
Category: Life

Hi!Nothing like loosing EVERYTHING to give a girl a new perpective on life. Ok, well maybe not 'everything', but when all the documents on your computer dissapear, you can excuse my hyperbolic language.

I'm starting from scratch, but at the same time I'm not. There's been a bit of growth, so don't freak out when I impart this little nuget of wisdom here but...there is no such thing as a 'fresh start'. !!!
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Ok, thats enough. The way I figure, you can leave (or lose 5000 songs from your computer :[ ) but still retain the memories of what was, and what should be now. And so when I took the daunting task to redo my computer, it wasn't as frightful as I imagined. Course, I've only got 500 songs, but still, that a start right?

At the moment, I'm on holidays, and its sweet! No major calamities have struck and so far next semester and all the glorious opportunities that await are looking pretty good. I'm as obssessed as ever about my TV/music, but hey, everyone has to have a hobbie!

Haaaaaaaa....o well. I have a lot of papers to sort through, because my list-making has once again reached exorbant proportions to which a mountain of loose paper, with seemingly unimportant but infact vital scribbles are potentially being ignored, because, well...I can't get to them.In other news... (this blog has no sensical or logical structure, so don't worry if it isn't as well rounded as either of us would like, its just the writings of a truthful and unedited brian...which is insanly bleak, showing no great amounts of naughty/dirty jokes, but plently of dry and slightly sarcastic comments that leads away from the original topic).

And to finish, I'm going to make a resolution to get more creative, more productive, more bold and take life by the horns to show that I will not be afraid to live and use life to my advantage, without the fear that I may make wrong choices or be corrupt or hurt others. I need faith, and I wont find it in religion. I know that the strongest faith comes from confidence and trust in your own ability to make the right choice.

But gosh, how do I go about getting all that without thinking about the 'journey' and clicheness of it all? All I want it to be. Be. Be. Be. There is just too much angst in this girl, without the clear reality - that life isn't a good episode of One Tree Hill, but simply a bunch of blah.

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Blah... and with that I wish you have an awsome week, wherever you are!xoxo Shailee

Currently reading:Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde By Robert Louis Stevenson